Blooming El



When I was around five years old, I was asked by my Nan what I wanted to be when I grew up. Apparently, my dream career at that young age was to work in Tesco on the checkout. By age eight, I had swapped scanning groceries for teaching children and when I finally reached secondary school, I had conjured up a range of different answers for the same terrifying question. From dancer to photographer, script writer to flight attendant, it was clear that I didn't have a clue what I wanted to do when I left school. Now, aged 21, having completed my GCSE's and A Levels and been employed at three different companies, I still fail to give an honest answer. 

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There is so much pressure in society to sort your life out at the age of 18. Why are we being forced to make such a life changing decision at such an early stage in our lives?

Over the past year, I've really been trying to find my calling in life. However, no matter how hard I try to come up with a plan or how many times I look on a job site, I'm still uninspired. 

Last week, I let out all my negative feelings in a draft post - how I felt pressured to make a decision, how I felt unmotivated, exhausted and pissed off at my lack of career aspiration.

"Then I look at myself - an unmotivated 21 year old who gets bored very easily, a girl who has no career plan and no idea where she'll end up in the next three years. Am I supposed to just wait for an epiphany?"

Half way through writing the post, I started to feel a weight lift from my shoulders. I let out a sigh of relief, as if a little rant was all that I needed. Those paragraphs, written in a state of confusion and negativity, made me see clearly and think positively. I guess, in a way, writing that post was my epiphany. It made me realise that it's okay to not have a career plan, it's okay to not have an idea of what you want to be or where you want to end up.

For me, life isn't all about work. It isn't about getting a degree and climbing the career ladder. It's about having fun, being happy, going on adventures and spending time with loved ones.

'Nobody on his deathbed ever said, "I wish I had spent more time at the office."'

- Paul Tsongas 

What do I want to be when I grow up?  

I want to be on a plane travelling to a new destination. I want to be sitting in an arena, watching my favourite artist on stage. I want to be behind the camera, capturing a beautiful sunrise. I want to be at a dinner table, surrounded by my family. I want to be in bed on a Sunday morning, wrapped in my partners arms. I want to be laying out carrots and mince pies on Christmas Eve with my children. I want to be cooking up a storm in my own kitchen.

Happiness, health and balance - those are my life ambitions, my aspirations, my honest answer.

Do you know what you want to do in life? Do you feel pressured to make a decision? What are your life ambitions? I'd love to hear your thoughts, comment below or tweet me - I'm @eleanoraustin


  1. I love this post; it sums up exactly how I am feeling at the moment. I feel quite lost and very confused about what I want to do because I just don't know! Thank you for sharing this with me, I completely agree with you about how you feel, I just need to accept that it's OK to not want the career and everything that comes with it.

    Will be returning to this post a lot I feel!

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  2. I'm exactly the same - I also really wanting to work at a checkout when I was younger too..I even had my own cash register! I've just finished university and have been working at my first real job for four months now. I find it really up and down - sometimes I feel confident that I'm working towards something that I actually do want to do, and other times I feel upset that I'm not achieving enough...nice to know I'm not the only one! Lauren -

  3. I love this post and I can totally relate! It is so hard to make a decision at this age and at any age I think! For me it is much more important to be happy and be doing something I enjoy at the time than to have a lifetime goal. xx

  4. This is such a good post. I've known what I wanted to do for a long time (since I was around 14) but even so my main aim is to just be happy. x

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