Blooming El



As some of you may know, I lost my darling Nan last December. Although we spent Christmas without her last year, I didn't have time to process it all as everything happened so quickly. This year, I've really been thinking about the fact that she won't be here.

My Nan absolutely loved Christmas and for a few months, I felt that there wasn't any point in celebrating Christmas because the one person who loved it, wouldn't be here to celebrate with us.

It has taken me a while but I've slowly found my festive spirit. I've nearly finished my Christmas shopping, I've visited a Christmas market, and this morning, I woke up to a beautiful blanket of snow outside. If snow doesn't get you in the mood for Christmas then what will?! 

I found a small white feather on my car yesterday, which if you believe in these kinds of things like I do, symbolises someone is watching over you. I have no doubt that it was a sign from my Nan, letting me know that she is still with us in some way and telling me to just suck it up and enjoy myself.

At the beginning of this year, I was planning on spending the big day in my pyjamas eating pizza with G; I thought I'd never find my festive spirit yet here I am, listening to my Christmas playlist, searching for a festive outfit, and contemplating wrapping some presents.

This time of year can be really hard for those who have nobody to spend Christmas with, I'm going to count myself lucky that I still have such wonderful family members to spend it with and hope that my beautiful Nan is watching over us all.